We fell so far away from where we used to be
Now we're standing and were do we go
When there's no road to get to your heart
Let's start over again

Harlo!
Yeahh, todae was results day!
And yeahh, i failed two subjects!
Physics ++ History..
I know it is bad..
I know it makes me feel lyk a loser..
But after reflecting..
I know i can do much better..
I know its not the best..
I believe in my potential of studies more..
Infact, i have more self confident that i am gonna do better..
I know, it might sound crazy..
Infact it does..
But, i have all the help i need around me..
TYS' es, Test paper, Textbooks, Teachers, most imporantly..
The bestest friends.
And my insane bro..
Yeahh!
Just want my special friend to know that she is the best..
Weishi: Orangee! (: What can i say? I feel so blessed to have you arnd.. My days never seem any brighter with you! :D All the jokes we made, the papers we tear, the long laughters we share will never be forgotten for sure.. If there is something i treasure, its you and the times i spent with you! And i want you to know i am sorry.. You keep seeing me breakdown over and over again.. But everytime, you are there to console me.. I really really hope we will be friends forever alrightt! As best friends, as gays, as the two rain girls! (:
And my lil insane bro: Vickk!! Hehe.. Ouh and do you know how much you have made my life brighter? Hmmpm.. You are like the nightlight that you gave me.. The candle that brought light to my dark life.. You always had my back.. And i never felt any more comfortable to share my problems with you.. No matter how hard my problem get, you can always seem to make it easy to solve.. I will never forget all the things we have done.. Lyk messaging each other insane or mad over and over again.. Akka && Thambi.. Mummie && adopted son.. BubuChacha.. four hours++ of toking on the phone.. The time when i spent 1hr++ crying to you on the phone.. Those nights were we spend listening to songs thru the phone.. And more!! (: How i keep those memories in my heart.. (: Trust me Vick, you can be the reason for my smile when i am so so down.. Thank you so so much lah.. I will never forget you; i promise for life! (:
Ouh, back to juz now!
I obviously cried juz now..
Coz i have this real sensitive kinda of thinggy.. Idk..
It's lyk on my numerlogy also!
Hehe..
I bet half of you guys dunno wad i am toking about..
Forget it..
Then i felt much better after toking to mummie..
Yeah i know..
Then i msg Vick to ask him abt his results..
Then he reply and asked me about mine..
And i said i failed physics andd history..
And i felt normal; infact i was cheerful then coz of my mummie! (:
He suddenly msg ''Omg. By hw much?''
Then i reply..
Then he like never believe..
He asked whether i checked with the teacher..
And i said ''Yeahh vick. I really sucked this time.''
And he was like ''Dun worry u cann try again grl.''
And i started to laugh..
Coz i was not worried nor emo..
But i guessed he, being my son andd brother, knew i would actually be sad about it..
But i was not anymore..
So his msg made me even more cheerful! (:
OKay, i sound retarded somehow!
Alright, i gonna go now!
Cya guys soon! (:
**Ouh, i am superr glad Weishi can make it this Saturday! :D:D**
--Sapphire (L)

You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You're the thing that's right

Hey yall..
Pretty exhausted from 2 things
One: I just swept && moped my house!
And Two: Waiting!
So, i didn't had to go to school todae.
Why?
Only HMT students in class had LC exam todae..
And i am not HMT?
Okay, i sound dumb! -_-
Anw, i juz topup my prepaid ardy.
Then, i msged people.
So, bro assured me abt something.
I was so happy you know.
I believed you will.
I believed everything was gonna go back to normal; like those days!
yEAH.
Wad a dumbass i was..
I waited.
I waited with a terrible stomach ache.
I knew that i can just sleep && the pain in my stomach will be gone.
But, i still choose to wait.
What a stupid choice.
Coz in the end, you didn't.
You didn't even tell me you wun.
Wad are you trying to prove?
Are u angry or smething?
I asked you todae..
Your answer was no..
Then, wad's wrong????
You know something..
I thought you cared.. You did..
Wad happen now?
You assured me many things..
You said you wun let me die..
You told me about your life..
You told me other stuff..
Now, we ain't even toking..
I can just slit my wrist now, but would you even care?
You dun even noe wad i am even doing now..
How long am i suppose to wait, bro?
How long do you want me to sad because of you bro?
I am tired.
Tired of all this waiting in pain..
I wanna give up ardy..
You left me in no other choice..
I didn't mind waiting all along.
But now, it seem so pointless..
It ain't worth it..
I feel lyk i ain't your sis anymore..
Rmb the times we msged each other juz to kol each other mad or insane?
Rmb the times when you kol me your elder sis?
Well, i can..
Wad do u want me to do now?
Clear them off my memories?
Make them vanish?
And without knowing whyy?
Let me tell you something bro,
I ain't angry...
Coz if i was, i wouldn't even kol u brother now..
I am just so upset..
Coz u were the one who made me forget my sad days and all my tears..
But now, you are becoming the reason for it..
I dunno whether you will read this or not..
But i didn't write this to make you angry..
I jus want to know wad is happening...
And whether did i do anything wrong..
Hope u are not angry at me for this..
And i want to apologize if i did anything wrong..
I am really sorry!
Very very sorry!
Hope the times we were crazy sibilings returns..
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Anw, yesterdae was last paper: Physics.
After finishing it, I && Sharnie went to tjcc first..
The rest, Caroline, Jocelyn, Vijay, WeiShi, QiWei came later..
We were gonna celebrate WeiJun's bdae..
Ouh && we the GAYS (WeiShi, me, my bro) bought him Bruce Lee poker cards && a black band! (:
Then , the plan was Ding Feng && Hao Yang were suppose to bring WeiJun there..
But then something happen && WeiJun ran away! ):
So, Hao Yang && Ding Feng came back with their bags && WeiJun's bag..
Then, we ransacked his bag to find his address && left to his house..
Anw, we went to his block && ate first..
Then, we saw WJ coming, so we ran to hide..
Then, Weishi left her camera && wallet on the table..
So we run back && WJ saw us! LOL!
So, he ran away again!
Then, blahblahblah...
Ouh && WeiJun's brother Wei Han is superduperawesome-ly cute!!!
So, WJ's mum, his brother && the rest of us went to find WJ..
After a long walk, we found him && celebrated his bdae! (:
The cake by then was melted! X:
But we still had fun!
Then, we played in the playground!
So much of fun!
Jocelyn && I were squeezing down the fully covered slide ALOT OF TIMES!!! :D
One point of time, we were gonna slide backwards..
So, our heads are suppose to be appear first before our body..
Get it??
So anw, we were preparing to go down..
When, Wei Han came and jumped on me..
In the end, only me && him were going down the slide..
I was laughing most of the time.
In the end, he was on me && we reach the end of the slide safely! (:
Fun!
Then Jocelyn, Caroline && Sharnie went back home first.. ):
The rest of us went home later..
And that was how WeiJun Bdae went.. (:
Later me, my bro && WeiShi went to jp && walked arnd first before going home..
Then, bus-ed home && blahblahblah..
Chose to sleep..
And that's all that happen..

&&

May all your wishes some true also! :D
Alrite then, gonna go off now..
Adiyos!
P.S: You know no matter wad, you are always gonna be my lil insane brother! (:
--Sapphire (L)

Hey guys!

Back from school after doing Chemistry.

The last time, i failed Chem.

Well, with tthat i start to panic.

Wake up && study.

My mind was like going to explode with Chemistry stuff.

But, the paper was manageable.

And that explained my smile on the face.

Then Paper one came.

And POOF!

The smile vanish.

Was abit hard.

Haizz..

Hopefully i can do well!

And prove Ms Ong that I ain't a weak student in Chem! (:

So, todae morning was later then usual.

Coz i was so carried away in the Chem Notes.

Went to achool.

Saw people.

OKay, i am being weird.

ZzzZZZZzzz

Anw, blahblahblah..

Came home, on the computer.

Then go online && fb.

Ouh um.. planned on the Clique Gathering! (:

Can't wait..

Hmm.. I wanted to do smething after that..

But should i??

IDK..

So, wad was i saying?

Ouh, i am pretty excited for it! :D

Hmm..

Now watching Jelita in Youtube.

I know im cheating.

Cozi watch the episodes earlier! (:

But, i will still watch it in teevee..

So its pretty much the same! (:

Loving it && Obessessed with it! (L)(L)(L)

Must say, Agnes Monica seem to more of a role model now! (:

And Dirly is handsome?? Idk..

OKay..

Anw, today is Agnes Tan birthdae (:

So, gonna continue watching Jelita.

Adiyos!

P.S: Tried but i just didn't have the heart. Infact, it makes me feel more worst!

--Sapphire (L)

Hmm, gonna watch videos..

Hey guys!

Back again!

Sorrie for slow updating!

More of lazy to update though! X:

Haiz. So on Sunday was Mothers' Dae!

Guess wad i gave my mum?

PEACE!

I bet she loved it! (:

Anw, the day before, my family and others go to ECP!

Ate there like arnd 12am..

Then, tok, tok.

Walk arnd the lake!

Nice night.

Then, went drive near the beach!

Sat down and talk ghost stories.

Weird you must say as there was diff age grp.

IDK whether you guys get it.

But toking ghost stories with relatives and parents?

Weird much?

yEAH!

Anw, came home arnd 2am and slept.

Wake up next day.

Lazy arnd.

Nth to do mah!

Ouh Ouh!!

Guess wad?

MY parents sold our house ardy!!

Yay!

So, they are curretnly looking for a rental flat.

And guess where?

At CCK!

Woah ryte?

yEAH!

Hahax!

Anw, pretty excited!

Hope i get my own room coz sharing with a guy?
Definately a pain in de ass!

Haiz..

So, juz came home from school.

Did EL paper two.

Not bad i guess.

Just the comments gave by others creeps me out!

So let's cut that freaking part and go on.

Tml is Geog and History.

Gotta study.

But now, i wanna watch videos!

NIGA HIGA!! :D

Hahax!

Adiyos!

Bye!

--Sapphire (L)

Millions colours of rainbow once filled my heart
Now they have dissappeared, leaving me
There is no more pure light
All the beautiful melodies have vanished
I am silenced in loneliness

Hey guys!
Back again!
So i wake up early in the morning again!
And mummie is back btw. (:
Okay, so i on the computer...
And listen to Matahariku!
yEAH!
Then, watch the video
And researched more on Agnes Monica!
(:
Hahah..
Oh, and did part of the gift..
Oh and i was alone at home.
Coz mummie and daddie went to work.
And bro went to meet Kavitha and Caroline.
Haiz..
Oh, but i was with Sheila!
FYI, Sheila is a silky terrier!
Hahas (:
Then, mummie just came back from work.
Guess wad?
She bought...
SUSHI!!
Hurray! (:(:(:
So that's wad imma eating now!
Hehe..
Gonna start doing notes later..
Obviously after eating sushi.
Oh btw, can i dun leave sushi(s) for my brother? ^^
LOL!
Byebye..
--SapphireStar (L)
**20 more days**

I have closed the door to my heart
That once opened only for you
Now you have gone from my life
I have to let you go, though it's so hard for me

Hey guys..
Guess wad?
I baked cookies todae!
Turned out okok.
I mean at least they look and taste like cookies ryte?
Yeah..
So mummie will be coming back toade!
Hurray!
Tired of doing household chores!
LOL!
Now i feel her pain de..
So, pratically watched teevee and use com the whole days.
Oh, and plus baking in the morning.
Also, i went for facial.
OMG. Auntie Violet's shop looks totally awesome now!
I mean the atmosphere is so damn cool.
And relaxing!
So, after facial went to buy KFC.
Like wdh ryte? Directly after facial i eat KFC..
LOL!
Alrite. After eating, watch teevee.
Then on the com to watch nigahiga videos.
Like seriously, he is lyk damn funny.
You guys should go watch his videos!
Just go youtube and search for nigahiga.
You will laugh too!
(:(:
Anw, at night i added a new friend in fb.
Her name in fb is Nad Aby.
Omg.
She was so friendly. (:
A new friend! Yay!
Then, she added me in msn too (:
Then we chatted for awhile.
She was from Vick's class.
Hehe..
Then, she had to go offline.
Sadly..
Anw, after..
Wanted to watch Enchanted on channel 5.
But sadly, the stupid teevee in the room was being an ass!
Grrr :@
Felt irritated.
So on the com again and downloaded songs..
Malay song!
Matahariku by Agnes Monica.
Those who watch Jelita should know who is Agnes Monica and the song!
Dun ask me why Malay song.
But i think it is like so awesome.
And addicted to it!
Should go listen to it too!
(:
That's all for now!
Byebye!
--SapphireStar (L)

**21 more days (:**

A minute with you is worth more than
A thousand days without your love

Hey yall!
Back again in the morning! (:
Hmm..
So today, i woke up early.
And idk why.
I was so tired.
Then i on my mp3.
Guess wad was the first song?
REPLAY! (L)(L)
I woke up immediately!
Woots!~
Anw, after bathed, blahblahblah.
Then i baked MUFFINS!
yEAH!
Turned out well! (:
Imma proud of them as it is my first time doing it alone.
But i did asked for help from Mummie to crack the egg.
Coz, i ain't good at it.
LOL! I know wad u guys must be thinking..
Alright, Mummie gonna go to Malaysia soon.
Gonna be weird without her for two days though!
Haiz..
Now, gonna go youtube to watch videos.
ByeBye!~
--Sapphire (L)
**22 more days (: **